And the countdown begins...

four and a half days left of work, I can't wait!!

"Hey Anthony, you want to play a really fun game?" -Joel Morris

So I spent last night with some of my favorite people whom I don’t see often enough. Joel, Candace and Adam Morris! Seriously I only see Adam about once a year and Joel and Candace maybe two to three times. How sad is that? I love the way I feel when I am around them. They make me feel so comfortable and they genuinely care about me and my life plus we laugh a lot (but how can you not when Anthony, Adam and Joel get together? They are a riot!)

For instance Anthony and I walked over to Joel and Candace’s new place where Adam was spending the night and sat around and chatted while watching Anthony and Joel play a really funny juggling game. It consisted of one of them juggling and then the other one stealing the balls out of the air but keeping up the juggling without dropping any. Then we decided to go on a walk and show Adam all the huge houses over by Volunteer Park. On the way the boys decided to try climbing a huge tree. They were giving each other boosts and trying to walk up the tree. It was good for a laugh. After that we just wandered around and decided to go get something to eat. We ended up at Coastal Kitchen where we shared tons of food. It was such a blast. Then around 11:30 we started the journey home. Of course I left my purse at Joel and Candace’s because I didn’t want to carry it on the walk so we had to go all the way back over there first before we could go home. The wind was blowing pretty hard and it was freezing (for June anyway) so we decided to run part of the way to warm up, luckily
it was downhill!






I really miss spending time with those guys and I really miss Adam. I wish he lived here (Erin too and I am excited to see her when she gets here Sunday!!)

*Pictures are from Adam and Erin's Wedding in Savannah, Georgia. Adam's bachelor party crashed the girls bachelorette party. Candace and I were one of the boys!

I am excited...

to see my nephews and niece tomorrow (or early Saturday Morning)!!!

A New Beginning!

If I want my life to change I have to actually take action and do it myself. No one else can give me my happiness. Today is a new day and as good as any to start changing my life!

Some goals (in no particular order) to start this new journey:

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  Spend more time with my family and friends.
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  Hug my loved ones more often.
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  Don't push people away because I am afraid they won't approve.
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  Finish my degree and get a job I actually enjoy.
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  Join a Book Club.
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  Continue Glass Blowing.
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  Make new friends.
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  Make the time I do spend with Anthony more enjoyable with less fighting.
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  Not be so jealous.
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  Learn to share my feelings and put them into words while keeping my emotions under control.

Well, whether they are life changing goals or even just some that seem insignificant there they are. Wish me luck!

At the risk of sounding like Derek Zoolander, I am going to ask this question in hopes of finding an answer: Who am I?

I wish that I could learn to relax. I need to not take things so personally and just laugh them off. How do I do that?

I need to learn to be happy with who I am and if things aren't going my way in life I need to take charge and change them. If only it were that easy.

There are so many things always rolling around in my head: doubts, fears, uncertainty. Why do I feel I don't deserve good things to happen to me, that I don't deserve to feel happy? Everyone deserves a little happiness in their lives, heck they deserve a lot of happiness in their lives. Now if only I knew how to get it. How to love myself and appreciate myself.

I need to learn to be my own person and not rely on others so much but still know they are there when I need them and that I am not an inconvenience. That I am worth something. My opinion matters and I need to speak my mind no matter what others may think of me.

Why are some people born so confident and self-sufficient and just generally likeable people and then others are so unsure of themselves (guess which I am)?

I just feel so lost...

I am not sure the answer to any of these but I know these are the things I really need to work on so any help is much appreciated :) (so far not off to a good start on the being my own person and not relying on other people. Oh well I guess we all have to start somewhere...)

G.P. Are you with me?

So yesterday I went to what could possibly be there very last Sonics game ever at the Key Arena. I spent over $200.00 on two tickets and then I almost didn't go because Anthony and I were fighting. The game started at 6:00 and I think we finally left the apartment at 6:10. We made it to the game two minutes into the second quarter but who should walk in right before us? Gary Payton!! He sat seven rows right in front of me. Literally not seven rows up and three sections over he was right in front of me. I love Gary Payton! He is my all time favorite basketball player. He signed some autographs for people but I was too big of a wuss to go ask him because there were cops making people leave him alone but the few that snuck through he happily signed and posed for pictures. He is so awesome!! Of course Anthony forgot his camera so this is all I could get from my crappy 1.3 megapixel cell phone camera.

Ok here is a better picture of The Glove at the game that was taken by somebody at the Seattle Times.

I am finally doing it...

I am going back to school!! I have finally decided on what I want to do with my life! I am going back to school to study Nutrition. I am also interested in becoming a personal trainer as well. I am starting off slow and just taking a couple of classes at BCC. It will take awhile but at least I have finally made a decision that I feel good about it and that makes me very happy and excited!