I just realized something...

My life is so boring, that I don't have anything exciting to blog about.

I have been really busy with work and housesitting and things like that, that I haven't had a chance to sit down and blog about anything for awhile.

So I thought today, on my one day off of work this week that I would sit down and catch up on a little blogging.

It was then that I realized that I really don't have anything to say. Despite being so busy my life is still really boring.

So as I sat here at a loss of what to blog about, I decided to catch up on reading all the posts I have missed on all the blogs I follow and I realized that my blog will never be HALF as awesome as any of those ones.

I am just not creative enough or have the time or the dedication to make anything more of it.

It is what it is.

That's ok though. I can deal with that.

I hope you can too.

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend!!

A few things I am excited for this weekend...

First payday!!

Birthday dinner and cheesecake with some good friends!!

Hmm... which one should I choose?

Seeing a funny movie!!

Family Birthday dinner at my favorite restaurant!!

Joining a new gym with some new friends from work!!

and last but not least...

Getting a new bike!!

I can't WAIT for this weekend to start!

first and last days...

Today was my very FIRST day at my brand spankin' new job!! I will just tell you right now that I loved it and I think I will have a lot of fun working there.

Ok now that that is out of the way...

I am turning 26 in one week. Easter Sunday I will be one year older and I have to tell you, I am really dreading it this year. There is something about turning 26 that just really bums me out. I am well on my way to my late 20's and that just sounds so.... well, old. Ugh. I know, I know, it's really not that old, but I got to tell you, it feels ancient. I thought by this age I would be married and have a kid or two, but right now I couldn't be any further from that destination. Funny how life doesn't always turn out the way you thought it would.

So today begins the last days of being 25. *sigh*

Now I am not writing this to have anyone feel sorry for me. Heck, I don't feel sorry for myself so why should you?! I just thought maybe someone could explain to me, why a day that I normally LOVE to celebrate, I don't even look forward to this year? How can I make turning the big two-six easier on and more enjoyable for myself? (Or how I can just avoid getting older all together. *wishful thinking*)

Any suggestions are more than welcome...

P.S. I'm not going to lie, I don't think having my birthday fall on Easter and General Conference weekend really helps my situation.

It's about time...

After ONLY seven long boring, monotonous months,

I am now gainfully employed!

Barring I fail the drug test and background check that is...

woo hoo!!

The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. -Lao Tzu

First picture was taken in Eagle River near Anchorage, AK

Second picture was taken somewhere between Fairbanks and Denali, AK

Third picture was taken in Canada (Yukon Territory)

All pictures taken by me.

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A lot has happened and the weekend isn't even over. I am not going to talk about it here. Sorry. If you want to know call or email me.

Here is to the future... My future!

So my last day of work is creeping ever closer! It is still very hard to believe. With no job lined up, I feel like I am heading into the unknown. It is all very exciting.

Last Thursday I decided that I have had ENOUGH. Every morning I have to struggle with myself just to get up and go to work. I despise it. My job is so unrewarding. My boss basically told me there was no room for advancement and that my job is what it is. Also I am starting school next week and even though I am only taking one class, I haven’t been in school for almost five years!!! There is no way I could juggle working full time and school, plus starting in the Fall I want to start going to school full time. So I went into my boss’ office and basically said I can’t do it all, I either need to move to part time or find a job with more flexible hours. I knew in doing this that he would say no, he doesn’t let anyone work part time because he is weird like that. Anyway, when he said no I had a hard time not jumping for joy. I am so ready to be out of here.

I start school Tuesday June 24th and in the mean time I am looking for a job with flexible hours. It doesn’t necessarily have to be part time just something I can work around my new life that is school.

*Let me know if you have any leads. Preferably in the downtown Seattle area!*

A New Beginning!

If I want my life to change I have to actually take action and do it myself. No one else can give me my happiness. Today is a new day and as good as any to start changing my life!

Some goals (in no particular order) to start this new journey:

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  Spend more time with my family and friends.
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  Hug my loved ones more often.
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  Don't push people away because I am afraid they won't approve.
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  Finish my degree and get a job I actually enjoy.
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  Join a Book Club.
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  Continue Glass Blowing.
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  Make new friends.
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  Make the time I do spend with Anthony more enjoyable with less fighting.
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  Not be so jealous.
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  Learn to share my feelings and put them into words while keeping my emotions under control.

Well, whether they are life changing goals or even just some that seem insignificant there they are. Wish me luck!

At the risk of sounding like Derek Zoolander, I am going to ask this question in hopes of finding an answer: Who am I?

I wish that I could learn to relax. I need to not take things so personally and just laugh them off. How do I do that?

I need to learn to be happy with who I am and if things aren't going my way in life I need to take charge and change them. If only it were that easy.

There are so many things always rolling around in my head: doubts, fears, uncertainty. Why do I feel I don't deserve good things to happen to me, that I don't deserve to feel happy? Everyone deserves a little happiness in their lives, heck they deserve a lot of happiness in their lives. Now if only I knew how to get it. How to love myself and appreciate myself.

I need to learn to be my own person and not rely on others so much but still know they are there when I need them and that I am not an inconvenience. That I am worth something. My opinion matters and I need to speak my mind no matter what others may think of me.

Why are some people born so confident and self-sufficient and just generally likeable people and then others are so unsure of themselves (guess which I am)?

I just feel so lost...

I am not sure the answer to any of these but I know these are the things I really need to work on so any help is much appreciated :) (so far not off to a good start on the being my own person and not relying on other people. Oh well I guess we all have to start somewhere...)

Well, here goes nothing...

Though I don’t have a family of my own and my life is not that exciting and I probably won’t have a lot to write about, Annelisa you have inspired me to start blogging. I am horrible at keeping in touch with people (including my family) and hopefully this will make it easier for people to know what is going on with my life even though we may not talk that often and hopefully I will be able to see what you all have been up to as well.

First I would like to start by saying that I love my family very much. Though I may not make all the right decisions and you may not agree with everything I do, I know you will always be there for me and support and love me no matter what. That means so much to me. I am sorry for all the pain I put you through and just know that I do understand how you feel but I am happy and who knows, maybe things will change someday but for right now I am ok with who I am.

To my sisters, this last Christmas was so fun with you being there. I didn’t realize how much I miss you guys. When you left I felt like I was all alone. You are the only people I can get mad at and be mean to and you still have to love me. I love that we can be fighting one minute and then the next laughing at something stupid. It feels good to know if I ever need anything no matter how long it’s been since we last saw each other or spoke that you will always be there for me. I love you both so much. You are my heroes and I wish we could talk and see each other more often.

To my brothers you are so fun to be around! You always make me laugh and we have so much fun annoying Mom at Sunday dinner. I love you guys and I know you are always there when I need you.

Mom and Dad- I love you so much. Thank you for all you do for me, for the unconditional love and patience. I know that I have hurt you both so much and that raising me was not always the easiest but you did an awesome job. Thank you for always being there for me and supporting me even when you didn’t want to. I appreciate you more than you know. You have always been such a great example to me of what I want out of life and I will get there someday. You are the best parents I could have ever hoped for.

Anthony I know that I am not easy to get along with or even live with. Thank you for being so patient with me and loving me no matter what. Thanks for laughing with me and going on walks and helping me try to figure out what I want out of life and helping me get there. I am so proud of all that you have accomplished. You are the smartest, funniest and most genuine person I know. I respect you so much for that. I love you more and more every day and I am so glad you are a part of my life.

I have 13 very cute nephews and nieces. They are so fun to be around and I wish I could see them more. They are Brandon, Emily, James, Jacob, Megan Lindsey, Nicholas, Hannah, Zachary Crookston, Haley, Callie, Katelyn Judi, and Matt and Riley. I can’t wait to watch them grow up and see who they become. I love them all very much and miss them.

Ok here is a little about myself…I recently moved to Seattle. I am literally a five minute walk to Downtown and a five minute walk to Capitol Hill. I love it here. I have the best view of Lake Union and the Space Needle. I live with my best friend and the person I love most, Anthony. I recently took up Glass Blowing. I have always wanted to do it. My mom took me to watch some people in Downtown Renton five or so years ago but it wasn’t until I moved to Seattle that I got my chance. I started with a weekend workshop (two days, four hours each day) at the Seattle Glassblowing Studio and I was hooked. I then went on to take two, six week courses (one day a week, four hours a day). Now that I am done with that I hope to continue. The next six week course starts in March. A friend I met through the class and myself are going to start renting studio time to practice. Our first attempt at assisting each other is tomorrow. I will let you know how that goes. Other than that my life is pretty normal and boring. I work Monday through Friday 7:30 to 4:30 as an Accounting assistant in Preston, WA. I like to run and hope to one day to be able to run a Marathon. I love to read and I love hanging out with my friends (which I don’t do enough). Also recently Anthony and I got our Motorcycle Endorsements and hope to get bikes that we can ride around Seattle. I also look foreword to getting to know Seattle better. I love walking around and seeing the sights and the people. It is so fun!!