I wish that I could learn to relax. I need to not take things so personally and just laugh them off. How do I do that?
I need to learn to be happy with who I am and if things aren't going my way in life I need to take charge and change them. If only it were that easy.
There are so many things always rolling around in my head: doubts, fears, uncertainty. Why do I feel I don't deserve good things to happen to me, that I don't deserve to feel happy? Everyone deserves a little happiness in their lives, heck they deserve a lot of happiness in their lives. Now if only I knew how to get it. How to love myself and appreciate myself.
I need to learn to be my own person and not rely on others so much but still know they are there when I need them and that I am not an inconvenience. That I am worth something. My opinion matters and I need to speak my mind no matter what others may think of me.
Why are some people born so confident and self-sufficient and just generally likeable people and then others are so unsure of themselves (guess which I am)?
I just feel so lost...
I am not sure the answer to any of these but I know these are the things I really need to work on so any help is much appreciated :) (so far not off to a good start on the being my own person and not relying on other people. Oh well I guess we all have to start somewhere...)
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
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Do you really want to know what I think?
Move to Idaho!
If you are going to say go back to church, I will just say it won't help bcause I felt the same way back then too, but go ahead, you are my sister and I love you no matter how mean you are to me :)
I think you need to get away. Maybe get a new perspective on things. Do something for yourself.
Take some time off work and come visit us here in Idaho. The kids would love it! Fly out and then we could bring you home when we go to Seattle for a visit. Just an idea. You are always welcome here.
honey, these are basic human questions. you are not a freak for feeling out of touch with who you are and who you want to be.
in fact, this is the age where most healthy women confront themselves and find who they are...so you are right on track.
i agree that those quesitons you are asking SHOULD and CAN lead you to answers, and I believe you are the only one that knows those answers.
i can't wait to see you on sat and help you try to see the same journey i have been on myself.
will you do me a favor and read the blog i have that is called "the bookends" here is a link http://candacemorris.blogspot.com/2007_11_01_archive.html
it will help with back story.
Hi April
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